More Rambling

I am tired of work! I know, like most people aren't tired of work. But I've found that being pregnant makes it worse. I find myself sitting at my desk, staring off into space so much these days. And everytime the baby starts kicking I stop what I'm doing to put my hands on my stomach to feel and talk (softly-don't want people in ajoining offices to think I'm crazy) to him. It's like I find the things that I'm supposed to be doing at work a major inconvenience. I mean, I'm pregnant. I'm going to have a baby. He is growing inside of me right now and will actually come out of my body in a few months a living, breathing human being. Doesn't anybody see how this is a million times more important than anything else going on around me!? Hmm, apparently not. And I feel guilty. This job is what pays most of the bills and makes it possible for my husband and I to even be able to afford a baby. I should be grateful. And I am - just not enough to be able to focus my attention completely on work. Or even partially, sometimes! Maybe this is what people mean by "pregnancy brain."

Anyway, baby update. I am now 20 weeks and 5 days pregnant. So over halfway done! Well, if the baby comes on time, that is. I think I might finally be gaining some weight. I surprised myself by having not gained even one measly pound last time I went to the doctor, despite the fact that I can now forget about wearing any non-maternity clothes due to the distinctly basketball shape of my stomach. The last few weeks, though, have brought this unrelenting hunger that I all too often satisfy with cookies (well, technically they are strawberry newtons, which I heard were actually fruit and cake) and ice cream while the apples sit there feeling neglected. I am seriously considering a salad and a lean pocket for dinner tonight, though. And my vitamin, of course. And ice cream.

Lastly, I will leave you all with a picture of a baby that was born at 21 weeks. At least that's what the caption said, and it looks about the right size. Babies born that early very rarely survive, but it is amazing to me to see what my little guy looks like right about now. So enjoy, and I'll talk to you later!